cold.

                                         winter. it was. she could feel the slashing breeze playing with her hair. yes, it was her. she was a little annoyed, but the tickle made her smile. it was no longer chilly, but a pleasant breeze. it was february. it reminded her of something. that sad curve appeared on her face again.
                                        'i shall shoot you someday. you are always late. i give you next 15 minutes, else i am leaving!' she was always dominating. she realized it (ultimately). but, she meant it otherwise. it was a part of her possesive nature which hid behind her loud and rude words. extremely possesive. 'i am almost there. trust me. try to understand. there was........beep beep beep'. the call was disconnected. yes, she did that. quite obvious. patience was never in her blood. and it was considerable. she was seeing him after a month. there were separated by some 200 kilometers, but it was a huge distance when you want the person to be just next to you, every single moment.she never realized that the possesiveness was her love for him. stupid girl, so i call her.
                                         he arrived. she frowned. he smiled. she turned around. she wanted to hide the blushes.(oh! how much she missed him!) she gave him a stern look. but his smile melts her heart always. 'i will kill you.missed you u, idiot'. he smiled again. 'i missed you too. coffee?'
                                         beep.'come soon! dinner! we are waiting idiot', said the text. her room mates.  her second family. she smiled. she stared at the window, 'tell him, i miss him. please!'. the breeze had always been a good friend.

the knots untied.

            'Change is the only constant variable in life', that was the beginning. And then the question comes to my mind, 'what about it's end'? Well, i don't have an answer'.

              I thought, she is really strong, but i was wrong.

              Last evening (yes the valentine's day; the suppose to be 'love filled evening') i saw a girl sitting virtually in the crowd. She was alone. I could sense that neither her mind nor soul sat beside her.

           With one cold coffee next to her, she was in a world where nothing else seemed to matter but, him. Then i sensed she wasn't alone. She was with him, 'virtually'. A coffee with his thoughts in her mind- was the best way to celebrate her valentine's. And it beeps ,a text from him. 'how are you?' she smiled, but with a strange cloud of sadness could be seen on her face. It was hard to notice the smile in such darkness. 

             Flashback- ' i don't wish to leave, but i have to'. That was the last time they were together. 'Memories'- the worst and the best creation of god. it makes you live your life with it's best moments and die several deaths. She was in love. That happened some three years back. She believed that 'sometimes the best way to stay close to someone you love is just being his friend'. And so, this friendship was celebrated for three years. Falling in love with someone so true was so obvious, but taking your steps towards it is quite difficult. She realized it very early in life. Sometimes things are beyond the 'right or wrong' thing. She replied to the text, 'i am good'. But for every reason, she was not. Walking down the empty street (as it seemed to her), she realized that closing her eyes would not make a difference. fear of losing him, would make her lose him forever. (a drop of tear accompanied her thoughts). He was always more than a friend. A friend who sung(no matter how worse he did) just to make her smile, a friend who smiled at her even with a cut to make sure she isn't worried. A friend who lived several sleepless nights so that she doesn't feel lonely. He was such. Losing someone like him, is completely not imaginable. Yes, she loved him. But, everything can never be perfect, specially when it was love. 

              She paid the bill, and walked away. While 'it only hurts when i'm breathing' echoed all the way through her empty street. Music is the best part of life, i strongly believe. It was time for me to go. So, i followed her on the way back.

                   03:56 am. The cell beeped. Her tears could never be stopped that night. That night was really dark. she smiled the worst way she could. Yes, she lost him. He was no longer in her world. There was no hand to hold her when she was alone. She couldnot see him or feel him anymore. There was no shoulder where she could rest her sorrow. She looked around, everyone was asleep. She tried but couldnot find anyone who could bring back his life. She walked to the ninth floor. A cold breeze, a dark sky and her loneliness. She screamt, she cried. She called out, but she had no one. She stared at her sister's wedding photographs in her phone, while it played 'saving all my love for you'. she could see her mom smile, her dad dancing with all the weird moves. Her sisters looking so pretty and the last one where 'they' were together.. 'i love you', she whispered. She texted her last goodbye. The dark sky hid my flightless bird.

                    She was strong, i still believe. I shall miss her.

                

valentine's is always about you and me!

enya for the brave heart!well, the warmth of valentine's day is in the air.......and i can see my friend clinging to her phone, my next door neighbour getting excited about the day, my brother all set with his lucky shoes, my room-mate blushing with the roses and the cards while another one is yelling over the sms charges! but, then in a corner there's some one who is waiting just for her 'todo' to hug her so tight. now a teddy makes it too cheesy! but, it's all about the feelings, you see! she dreams of the light that awakened her every valentine morning, with a smile that means 'just one more year closer to the most special day'! being single is never the sad part of the story, but the long wait sometimes gets a little ( a li'l more) cruel! i am glad this day, that i am a step closer to what i would call 'a dream within a dream' (nay, i am not talking about inception!)