shades of the eclipsed sun

                                   beep. 'where are you?' she sat on the wet stairs. The place clearly spoke of its age. It was getting dark. 'rain', she smiled.  And the breeze. The exam was over. She was too rude that afternoon. And as usual, he didnot deserve an ounch of it. He was still new to that place.

beep. 'where are you? exam over? wait, i am coming. i am with a teacher.' A forever geek. and a nerd (which he never accepts).
She could see the pink touch her feet. The petals danced with the breeze. The sun played his game. The clouds made her feel cold. She waited. Her sister was nowhere. Even 'ba' trusted him more, and that was obviously understood. There he comes. Now, there was a reason why she liked maroon. formals make even a geek look really good. Really good. And the quiet 'smirk'. he sat next to her.
But she began dancing with the 'pink'.
 -'How was the exam? came out too early.' their eyes rarely met.
 -'Good. I can join you soon. Get ready to treat me well', smiled, 'girls know you well. even my neighbour in the hall did.' they had their usual fight. 'possesiveness' had its role, always. The junior was all set to step into his abide.

The walk after that was a never ending one. She hates it when people stare. And, they were! There lay a 'less travelled' road the other side. She wanted to take that way, 'with him'. Though it was not a surprise, they could feel a drizzle.

The first rain 'together'.
In no time, it turned to be quite dramatic. Heavy rain. Flowers fall. The tree (with it's scientific name on it, now that was unusual!).
It was a good moment. 'happy' shouldn't be the word, she was shy. It was pure. She loved him. But they had a distance, which could never be traversed. no matter how close they were, far apart they will always be. she was happy, and shy. 'come inside, you will fall sick'. they left.
                                    it's the same rain. and yes, far apart they are. the distance remains the same.
'beep'.
nay, it wasn't him.

it's just a life

'It's just life'- just life? you mean, the one which we have once in a 'lifetime'?  it does sound weird, but true. Of all the consolations showered on, i like this one the best. Basically every question is like a (long or  short) string. it has got its two ends- no matter if it's twisted or not.same goes for a question, no matter what it is all about, has either of the two answers- a simple 'yes' or a 'no'! you are in a relationship? -yes or no (i don't know whats 'it's complicated' actually refer to! either he's with you, or not! facebook, stop making things complicated!) anyway, it's just an example and i promise not to turn saddist 'again'.
now, this corner of the blog is all because of a gujju boy who has a dandiya kit in his cupboard!
i decide to come to the point zero. now comes the slap of reality. 'yes' or 'no'? are you happy with what you are living with? well, this includes this career thing, that personal life...and again this and that. and winding up this long question, i come back to the answer. to be on the 'yes' side would buy me guilt. the guilt of lying none butmyself, and the burden of compromise. and about the 'no' thing, it does buy me the dark black hole. now, here comes the end. help me answer. yes, or no?